Feb 20, 2011

A New Day

Odd how life changes quicker than we can blink and yet still stay the same.  Today is Sunday, the day I sit around reading blogs listening to the kids play with Dean.  The house is a mess, dinner still hasn't been put away, and Laina is banging on the piano.  All is well and right in our little world yet it isn't the same as it was before.  Something has changed and I can't even put a finger on it.  Life here is good and for the first time in a long time less stressful.

We move this week to a new town and a new house.  Dean will begin a new job and I will be meeting new homeschooling families.  I will also have my first job as a food photographer.  Things have opened up and honestly we have been blessed with more than we thought was possible.  We have new challenges before us but for some reason they are not as daunting as they were even last week.  Maybe its the change in weather, after all Spring is poking its head up here and there, in brief hints of color and smells.  Maybe its the new changes are going to see.  I think the real change has been in me though.  The last few months have taught me more about myself than any other time in my life.  So much has become crystal clear and for the first time in a long time I feel like I can breath.  Not so much because our situation has finally changed but because I have changed.  Some where in me the control freak has lost a little of her power and I am finally learning to relax, a piece of the worrier has gone to rest forever, and the ever present grasp of anxiety has been replaced with a sense of calm.  I haven't done much to achieve this new state, well at least it doesn't appear that I have, but in the end I have just let go and learned to have Faith.  Faith in what it is I believe and Faith in myself. 

This is a new leaf for me and one I am sure won't be easy but I look forward to it.  I look forward to so many of the changes that are happening in our life.  I look forward to the new friendships we all will be able to have and for the old ones that we will be able to rekindle.  I look forward to learning new things for our family and about of new area.  Really at this point in time I am just looking forward.

I challenge all of you to find a few things you are grateful for this week, have the faith to let something go and take a moment to look forward.

Wishing you all a fantastic weekend.

1 comment:

Nicole said...

Glad to hear the good news. Good luck with the move, and since you're moving, I can see you when we come to Idaho in April! So excited!