As many of you know I choose one word each year to "live by" rather than a list of meaningless goals. Last years theme was "choose" and boy did I choose. I spent the better part of the year choosing to be grouchy, ornery and feeling sorry for myself. Not exactly what I had in mind when picking that word. But it's a new year and with some new structure in place I am hoping that I can cope a bit better.
I have spent a few moments here and there trying to come up with the word for this year but I'll admit it's tough. At first I thought I would choose "Create" except I've already done that one (2012). Dang it! Everything else I tried on just didn't fit. And then in the midst of a hellish emotional week I figured out my word. "Live".
The word is perfect for what I want to accomplish this year. For whatever reason (and I will write more about this later) as I've grown older I've also experienced more severe depression than ever. Anyone who battles depression knows how it can suck you under without a heads up "Oh hey Kim, I know life is grand but on March 22 you will no long function. FYI". Seriously that would be a most helpful memo to receive. Anyway as my depression gets worse so does my anxiety (again, I will write more about that later). What these 2 things do to me is rob me of life. I end up on auto pilot for stretches of time only to surface again and feel like I've missed out on everything around me.
So this years word is Live. I will live in the present. I will choose to Live healthier which includes so much more than just food. I will work on living the life I imagine.